Boston Post Mortem

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Ok, I’ve been putting this off a bit too long. I wanted to write a post mortem on boston just to get a few facts down. If I dont do that first, I wont be able to record anything that successively came after Boston because I’m too OCD. My trip to Kyiv has quite a bit worth blogging about for instance.

First off, I had a strep test after the race and it came back negative. On the one hand, it may just mean its inconclusive as to whether or not I had strep because I took a bunch of azithromycin beforehand. Yet, the possibility does exists that I didn’t have strep that day. I dont really know, and I dont think it matters from the perspective of the race. But, the more I think about it, the more I realize, with strep comes a fever and just an overall feeling of weakness I’m very familiar with. It’s unlikely I could PR with strep, much less get through 20 miles. That doesnt discount the fact I had something real going on that was painful however. I dont think swollen glands can be the result of something psychosomatic. Besides, imagined or not, I had real pain and swelling in my throat.

The Boston marathon is a PR course. You just need to run it right. Perhaps me being so conservative running Boston because of my fear of illness allowed me to cross the finish with the time I did. Perhaps ironic in a way. I dont know.

Boston is like a giant party. Everyone treats you like a rockstar and you need to experience it to understand why it’s so great. I think everyone should do it regardless of how you get there.

I think the qualifying times are an arbitrary standard and I have never disagreed with them more now than before. If you’ve ever done research as to why they were put in place, you would know they were done so as a way to eliminate the surplus of applicants that the race could not handle. Other marathons have better systems to accomplish this. Boston has (or had at one point) a false sense of belief that these time qualifications will weed out the less serious runners. These qualifying times became a standard people felt they need to hold themselves to.

Someone’s speed has little to do their passion. I don’t think someone who has talent is necessarily more deserving to run Boston than a slower individual who might be more dedicated. Raising money for charity to get into the race may be a fair way to measure dedication to the sport, but I think Boston needs to learn lessons from other marathons. New York’s 9+1 program is a perfect example of measuring one’s dedication, but locality of the participant gives an unfair advantage to those in the NY area. First come, first serve, or lottery is also fair IMHO.

I also want to record how I failed at Boston. One of my goals is to better manage the stress of these events (and life in general). When I think of the training, time, and money spent towards these events, I begin to place a lot of importance on the results. With so much invested, I better get a good result or so much is wasted. I think everyone who trains for events like this does the same, but for me, the importance becomes a source of stress and managing this stress has always been a challenge.

With this race, regardless of the reason, whether I really had an illness, or if it was in my head, staying up all night worrying about it was a failure for me. I need to learn how to better let go. In the end things worked out ok. Better than I could have ever imagined beforehand in fact. But, I believe for other reasons than due to how I coped with the curveball thrown at me.

With that said, Boston is done. I’m giving a lot of thought to what I want to be able to do in my running, and its more about being able to run far, hard, without much effort rather than getting PRs at races. Quite a different mindset to what I measured myself against before. But it’s really what I enjoy. I fell in love with running before I ever ran a race and before I knew what the initials PR stood for. Getting out there, feeling strong, and going as hard as I can over distance further than I have the patience to drive my car is what I really love doing.

I’ll still race. The Brooklyn half is next and I’ll attack it more out of curiosity. I still want to break 1:29:00. And, I’m trying to decide between the Hartford marathon and Philly for next fall. I still need a target to focus on, but now its going to be secondary to my training, rather than my training being a means to an end.

I never learn

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I went for my final short long run today. A week before Boston so it’s just 10 miles. I went out initially thinking things didn’t feel well. I wore a new pair of Asics Nimbus 11 in order to break them in since I intend to use them for the race next week. I ate a couple of glucose tabs and drank a glucose shot, more for a rehearsal in order to test them out for potential stomach problems.

It’s a beautiful day, 45 F, but sunny, yet windy enough to make up for the sun.

Again, at the North County Trailway, but a different section just to break up the monotony. Same half mile markers exist on this portion as well. Before starting out, I knew I already felt the glucose. I’m sensitive to sugar rushes somewhat, but not nearly as much as my daughter who gets giddy and silly whenever she eats candy.

New shoes, and legs feeling somewhat fresh from the taper, I took off trying to find that comfortable pace that I will be looking for on race day. A half mile in, and I see I’m doing a 6:33 pace. My judgement is obviously way off. For the first time, I’m feeling good in a while.

I try to slow it down a bit, thinking 7:10 should be reasonable, but I think my brain subconsciously knows I’m only doing 10 today. I hit the Garmin too early before the next half mile marker, mistaking the wrong white line for the one that I realize comes 10 seconds later. I hit it again so that I can at least get an accurate split for the next marker. Overall pace is at least showing 6:42 for this mile but I think still too fast for a 10mi run. This is more like my tempo pace than my marathon pace.

For the rest of my run, my splits stay sub 7:00. Quite a few splits at 6:40 on the return of my out and back. I find running on slight inclines feels better than running on the same slight declines on the way out. Over all 6:52 average for 10 miles when I’m done. It wasn’t what I would call easy effort. I admit it was even more than marathon effort. But, at first I feel good about this run. It was some reassurance. Recently, I’ve felt lethargic and have been struggling. But, of course something dawns on me and I begin to wonder if this was a dumb mistake. 6:51 was my half marathon race pace last January.

What was I thinking? I didn’t run 13, but 10 at what might be considered close to race pace a week before a marathon. Did I just make the dumbest newbie mistake of running too hard as soon as I felt good during my taper? I still have a week left though, so I’m going to take it extra easy from here on in.

But this tapering is really getting to me. The nerves are starting to set in. I’ve been having trouble sleeping too, which I blame on tapering, not so much the nerves. Things just don’t feel right generally and I’m constantly questioning myself. I know it’s all normal stuff. But, I really wonder what I’ll be able to do on race day, and I’m starting to look forward to it now that I think about it.

Running again

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After having a fever the whole day yesterday, I woke up this morning fever free, so I went out to get some of the miles I intended two days ago.

A few days ago, the original plan was a hard 15 miles at marathon pace during the weekend, but today the plans would have to be adjusted. I thought 10 at easy pace would be enough and if I wanted to, I could decide to extend it to 15. I did this in the Rockies and it was effort to maintain the 8 minute mile pace I typically do when going for an easy run.

Towards the end, the hills slowed me down to 8:16 avg pace overall. I managed to do a total of 13, and headed back more for convenience combined with the fact I didn’t think 2 more miles would give me any additional benefits at this point.

It’s obvious the fever from yesterday was having an effect on me, and I knew this would be the case based on how tired my leg muscles felt before I even began running. I’m in a taper mode anyway, so as long as I dont lose fitness, I’m fine.

Time Trial

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Today, I woke up not wanting to go for a long run. It was cold and I had a chill in me. It was going to be my last long run before starting my taper. The long run last week was a disaster, so I was hoping to see if I could repeat what I did the week prior, especially since it was my last chance before the race. The weather was very similar to that two weeks ago, except the wind wasn’t as bad, but the overcast and temperature of 41F was perfect.

I started out aggressively close to the pace I averaged last time (7:10), and with the intention of blowing up if need be. I think there’s some benefit to blowing up on occasion, since it stresses your body to adapt and improve. This was more about seeing how long I could hold it. During the whole time, I ran a tiny bit out of my comfort zone, focusing on my form, breathing, and just holding the feeling. On the way out, I notice the garmin was showing my distance being short by .1 miles according to the mile markers. Later, I would confirm this is the case on the map after uploading the route.

the garmin inaccuracy which lost .1 miles on the way out

Knowing the distance was being reported as short, yet seeing 7:05 for the average pace despite that was pretty gratifying.

During the run out, I decided to go out a bit further for half a mile so that I would end with at least 21 miles. I might as well get in that extra mile before winding things down. I turned around when the garmin said 10.5 miles (it was longer) since there was no half mile marker posted on the path past the Yorktown firehouse.

After the turn around things started feeling hard but I was able to compensate by adjusting my stride and form. Small quick steps with my pelvis tilted forward. Going up the hills somehow felt easier, albeit slower, than the downhills. I never would have had the guts to hold this effort if I was running the marathon. Knowing the distance ahead of me for a full marathon would have been too intimidating.

By the end, the garmin reported 21.09 miles (21.18 actual if you count the missing .1 mile) in 2:28:52 with an average pace of 7:03 min miles. I’m actually surprised and questioned whether or not I really did this, but with the course being measured, the distance reported is short, if anything.

I think I like these training runs more than I like the race itself. Now comes the tough part… tapering.

The course.
And my splits.

Badwater!

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After waking up at 2am and watching TV until 6:30am, I set out to do my last tempo based run before winding things down for Boston. It went better than expected, meaning my pace was faster than what I thought it should be based on feel, but I cut the run short by 20 minutes. Part of the reason was time constraints of having to get to work. Part of it was to keep a bit in the tank for my last long run this sunday which I plan to do again at a hard pace.

My target tempo pace is 6:40, but I wound up doing 20 minutes at 6:33 and then another 20 minutes at 6:36. The third round of 20 minutes was the one I skipped for the reasons above. Including the recovery miles, I did a total of 8 miles.

Yesterday evening I found out I have an opportunity to crew for Tony this July when he does Badwater for the second time. This is an experience I feel very fortunate to participate in. I feel like I’m getting something for nothing because I’m not the guy who is going to have to run the damn thing. Yet, I’m going to get to feel a tiny bit of what this race is about. I’ve always had a fascination with this race ever since I first learned about it. Never did I actually think I would ever get to witness it, or even participate in some ancillary way. Pacing is what I’m looking forward to most since it gives me an opportunity to run parts of the course.

Others who I’ve told about this, joke that I’ll be doing it next. The truth is though, I don’t ever see myself doing this race. The amount of time and dedication to training for this is not something I have the luxury of affording. The most I see myself doing is a 50 mile race, which I have my eye on at the end of May as being a strong tentative.

Running 100 miles for 24 hours through the night? Can’t see myself really doing that either, although, as I see a few people I know getting ready to go off to do Umstead this weekend, a part of me has a lingering curiosity with small bit of envy.

But 135 miles through the desert in 120 degrees Fahrenheit?

Ready for Boston

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Finally, I got a chance to test myself out on a long run. We’re in the middle of a nor’easter with heavy rain and heavy winds at 47 degrees F. Perfect weather for this type of run.

I did this along the north county trailway which is an off street paved path going all through Westchester. I did this as an out and back starting at the Briarcliff library and turning around at the Yorktown firehouse.

The path is one of my favorites for this type of run, or any run where measuring pace is important. There are half mile markers along the whole way. For the most part, there are no steep hills like the Rockies, but there are steady inclined and declines that go on for a few miles. I ran this path many time preparing for the NY marathon and I’m pretty sure this was my first time back since.

Starting out, I wasn’t sure I wanted to do this but with March being the last month left for hard training I decided to find a comfortable quick pace. After half a mile I checked the garmin and it was a 7:19 pace. I wondered if I’d be able to keep it. Well, my avg pace after 20.22 miles was 7:11. I even had quite a few sub 7:00 splits on the return.

I was quite surprised things felt so good the whole way. It was just a good day for me. First time being able to go out long with good footing and perfect weather. At one point I saw some animals is the near distance and wasn’t able to tell if they were african wild dogs or deer. I’ll assume they were deer.

It was unfortunate though, to see so many trees busted up and still freshly broken from the snowstorm we got at the end of february. You simply couldn’t look anywhere where there were trees without seeing a bunch of broken ones split in half or knocked over. There were even quite a few posted mile makers that were missing. fortunately, there are still the solid white lines on the floor which accompany those missing half mile markers.

I think I’m in better shape for Boston than I realized. In fact, I’m fairly certain I’m in better shape than I was for NY. It’s quite gratifying to know that considering how things have gone the past few months. I think ill try to PR in Boston. Let’s just hope I have a good day on april 19th too. And if not, that’s ok too since I don’t feel I’ve invested so much in my training for this, so no big loss if there’s a mediocre performance that day. I got nothing to lose either way and that’s a great feeling.

when it all just clicks

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Since doing the 50K last sunday I’ve been taking things very easy. I’ve felt ok since then. Some tightness the next day with my right leg feeling significantly sore in my thigh. It was a weird soreness and something not right about it. Walking down stairs hurt, and it felt more like an injury than DOMS. The heating pad helped tremendously over the past day with each day getting much better than the next.

I skipped running Monday. Tuesday I did an easy 6.36 miles along the west side highway at a very slow pace and keeping it very slow intentionally. Wednesday, I did 8 miles at a slightly faster than my defined easy pace.

Tonight was one of those nights where everything felt great. I started out with what I thought would be an easy 5 miles. The fact I’ve been keeping things easy, I realized I felt somewhat restless when starting. I decided to instead find a pace which just felt good, thinking I would settle into marathon pace.

As soon as I felt settled in, I notice how crisp the air is, how cool it is, and how the slight dampness feels nice. After the first lap, I check my garmin and I’m surprised the pace is much faster than I thought. Closer to my tempo pace. Each lap around my neighborhood goes by faster and faster and the effort feels less and less. I concentrate and focus just on the feeling and finding that comfortable zone where there is some effort, but it’s only as much as I want to give. And it feels good. There’s no struggle and the laps go by faster and faster. The speed comes by itself.

A few kids take notice of how I keep passing by and they give remarks as kids do, mixed somewhat with awe with a twinge of mocking. I laugh to myself as I hear noises behind me that sounds like running and cheering.

On the next lap I see them watching me come down, standing still with an obvious plan, but uncertain as to whether or not they have the confidence to act on it. I hear one of them counting “1, 2, 3″ as if getting ready and its obvious they want to run along with me so I shout, “come on guys, hurry up, let’s go! ” They take off with a lot of noise and laughing, but they’re way behind and I’m not slowing down for anything.

Next lap, they’re waiting at the same spot and I shout out they should start now and get a head start. They do. I pick up the speed because it’s now a race and I got something to prove to 11 year olds :) . More laughing and screaming about how I’m catching up. As I pass each of them, they stop running one by one.

Next lap it’s 5 miles and they yell out they want to time me and I enthusiastically agree and I mention this is my last lap. “Ok, ready, go” I yell as I pass by. I now push out of my comfort zone. During this run, I wasn’t sure what distance I would stop, but stopping at 5.5 at this effort feels right. The idea is cemented as I decide ending it with a hard effort just works out for the best. It’s good to end it now while still feeling great, so I push harder and when I see them again they say 3:01. The lap was half a mile, but I’m sure it is faster than a sub 6. I slow it down to a recovery pace and I’m wondering if they will decide to follow, but it’s getting late and they shout goodbye’s. I reciprocate as they head home.

I plan to cool down for another mile, but I’m just enjoying the outdoors and pleasant night, I stretch the cool down for 2.5 miles and I log 8 in the book with 5.5 for a tempo pace of 6:45

Why can’t every run feel like this?

My first ultramarathon… of bathroom breaks

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It’s amazing what can change in a week. Finally, I can write a post where I’m not compelled to whine about the snow and tough conditions to do a long run outdoors.

For this week, my week in training went pretty well.

Monday 8.2 miles of marathon pace for 1 hour.
Tuesday Short on time so I did just two cruise intervals for 20 minutes of 3 miles each.
Wednesday Had a planned rest day but snuck in 4.2 miles in 31 minutes for another marathon pace effort.
Thursday Easy day on the treadmill, 8 miles in 64 minutes, last 2 miles in socks, no shoes.
Friday Decided last minute to do one 3 mile tempo. After the 1 mile warmup, I decided to run the tempo harder than usual pace since I was just doing one. Actually did 5K in 19:35, 6:18 pace. Counted it as my Vo2 max session for the week. The warmup and cooldown added 2 miles to total 5 for the day
Saturday Rest day, this time for real
Sunday Long run, did 31 miles

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Yes, 31 miles on Sunday. It turns out I decided to do the 50K in Caumsett Long Island last minute. It also happened to be the USATF National 50K Championship and there were some pretty fast guys running that ultra faster than I could do a 5K.

Of course this wasn’t an actual race for me. There would be no way I would be able to recover in time for Boston next month. Even though I’m still not sure what my goal for Boston will be.

Nonetheless, although it was just a training run, it was still my first ultra. Typically, I do a marathon as a tune up before racing a marathon. This practice is somewhat controversial with a lot of people having opinions as to whether or not there are benefits past 20 miles, and if there’s more harm than good. I can debate this, but for the purpose of this post, I’ll just say that there’s nothing magic about a specific distance, and each of us have our own threshold as to how much is too much. If you can build to 20, you can build past 20. If anything, the amount of time you spend running is more tangible than the distance.

Since, this was not a race, I’ll try to keep the report short. The course itself was a 5K loop, mostly flat with some gentle rolling inclines, and two moderate inclines. Despite my complaints on my last post of doing 40 laps of a half mile loop for 20 miles, this was nothing like it. It was actually a nice course and long enough not to feel like you were running in circles getting dizzy.

The initial plan was for me to pace Tony and Peter, who I traveled with to the race. The intention was to help them out with a goal time of sub 4:30, while serving a dual purpose in benefitting me from not getting carried away and running it too hard. Last September I did the Yonkers marathon as training for NYC and accidentally did 3:21 on what I thought was easy effort. Although, I was pretty pleased with myself when I crossed the finish, it prevented me from being able to run an 18mi tune up race and some other quality workouts. I didn’t want to make that same mistake again.

So the morning of, the weather is quite brisk, but sunny. The forecast calls for low 50s by the afternoon and its difficult to figure out how to dress. Being that I’m running easy, I don’t know if I will be able to go fast enough to keep warm. I decide to go with shorts and just a long sleeve top.

While lined up, the speech is kept short, and the horn goes off. Peter and Tony take off surprisingly fast. I guess it’s clear they’re out to race. I follow and question whether or not I should reel them in. I wait for the crowd to thin out to see if the pace naturally adjusts. It doesn’t, so I check my garmin and inform them we’re going much faster than the planned 8:30s.

The first lap is chilly and windy. It goes by fast and is quite enjoyable, although the pace was too quick the whole time despite me running behind them.

The second lap things warm up and everything is comfortable. Again, too fast with consistent 8:15s. During this lap I realize I am in trouble with a case of the runner’s trots. It comes and hits me out of no where. Some cramps and a bad urge to go to the toilet. There are port-a-johns at the start of each loop and I debate whether or not I should use them or skip it in hopes this subsides.

We get to within half a mile from the porta johns and the sight of them makes the urge stronger. There is no getting around it now and I begin to worry if I’ll even make it to them without exploding. As we run to the timing mats, I see both port-a-johns are occupied by the locks colored red. I’m told there’s one inside in the cottage so I run in there. I’m now racing to find it and not because the clock is ticking, but because I’m struggling to keep myself together. I finally realize which unmarked white painted door is the bathroom and of course its locked. I wait there for what feels like an eternity. It’s at this point I wonder if I should hang tight and wait, or check the port-a-johns outside. No one racing would take this long. Finally, some guy comes out who must be at least 109 years old. I run in, do my business. Come out and the same guy is now blocking the hallway doing something with his pants and I cant get around him. I remind myself that I am technically running a race and realize the bizarre situation. I manage to politely slip past him without accidentally knocking him over and breaking his hip.

I am now happy to be back out there and able to run. I’m so relieved. I’m so much lighter!! I run a little bit harder. Things feel great. The weather is so fantastic and it’s the type of weather where there is no way to spend it better than running. I’m happy at the idea that I’ll be able to spend enough time doing it today. I push a bit harder to try and catch up to Tony and Peter. It’s not until I almost complete the lap that I see them. I realize I did 7 min miles for that 5K loop and I catch them right as we go over the mats. My watch shows a little over 21 minutes for that 5K.

I run the next 5K with them and no sooner do we start do I realize I have stomach issues again. Although I still feel great, I question whether or not that fast 5K is going to catch up with me and make then end a struggle. The reoccurring cramps and second urge to go makes me contemplate the possibility of dropping out at some point later in the race and I casually mention this. The remark is met with some shock and confusion by Tony who encourages me to do the best I can to finish.

We continue on. We come up with a plan so that I can help refill their bottles at the aid station to minimize the time spent stopping, but the plan does not come to fruition. Instead, the proximity of the port-a-johns towards the end of the lap have another bizarre effect on my bowels. Like a magnet, the closer I get, the stronger the force, and again, I stop on 4th loop, 20K, for another bathroom break. Luckily the port-a-john is empty, and it doesn’t take as long since there’s not as much left in my system. I finish up, run out, and catch up to them in about a quarter of a mile.

We do the next lap. At the end of that lap, 25K, I go again. I try to be somewhat optimistic and hope this will be the last time. I run out to catch up again. I’ve been running long enough where I can find a groove even at a slower pace. I catch up to them, and slow down to what I feel is 8:30s. They don’t stick with me. I’m undecided what to do. Am I misjudging the pace? I question how much I’ve been benefiting them. It feels like the majority of the time is me struggling to hold in my bowels, or me running to catch up with them. I decide the two of them are running together and have each other to pace off of and I am not adding benefit. I decide I will be better off mentally with the stomach issues if I can just find a pace that feels comfortable whatever it is. Somehow going slower makes it feel worse. I tell them I need to go ahead. I later learn this was a key moment when I should have stuck with them as their race was falling apart and I feel guilty about it. I express this to them later, and I’m told not to feel this way. Nonetheless, I hope to make it up to them at some other point.

I make it two laps, another 10K, before I need to use the port john. It’s at this point I realize I have 3 more laps to do. 9.3 miles. I’ve done about 22 so far. Over an hour to go feels like a lot. But another lap doesnt, and the last two went by rather quickly. I go out and decide to just get the next lap done.

Another lap. Towards the end of this lap, even before seeing the porta johns, I stop dead in my tracks right before they appear in sight. I stop because there’s a lot of gas and other stuff moving throughout my gut and I am afraid moving will, well, lets just say I’m afraid to move. Things recover and I make my way to the mats, and my port-a-john to take another bathroom break for what will be the last time!

I go on to finish the last two loops. The first of the two I’m beginning to be glad that there’s only one more after the one I’m on. After I go over each of the two moderate inclines I mentioned earlier, they feel more difficult, and I remind myself I only have to do each of them once more.

As I do the last lap, I’m glad to admit to myself I’m happy it’s over after this. I cross the finish at 4:21:33 and go right past the lady giving out the medals. It’s after 15 minutes later I realize others have medals and I approach her to pick up mine.

Something worth mentioning is that I tried the glucose tablets during this run and realize, although they work great, they’re not ideal for taking during a race. If you’re thirsty its hard to chew them and get them down and might even risk choking if you’re breathing hard. They’re not easy to carry either, but if you manage to get them down without needing the Heimlich maneuver, I can confidentially say they’re more effective than any gel.

I also learn afterwards that Aaron, who traveled with us, but ran it on his own, also with no real goal, wound up doing an average 6:59 pace for the entire 50K. I’m still blown away by this. He’s also doing Boston and I can only imagine what he’ll pull off at that race.

The next day, I’m surprised my legs are a little sore. I can’t say I had to put much of an effort in during the race. I think I’ll be completely back in another day, if not tomorrow.

This weekend, no matter what the weather is, I plan to go out and do a hard 20 miles to figure out where I am in terms for Boston because right now it’s a mystery to me.

Below is an image of my half mile splits. You can clearly see where the bathroom breaks are.

half mile splits including 5 bathroom breaks

just like smoking

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You first try one out and it makes you feel sick and nauseous and you really hate it. But you see all the cool kids doing it and it’s something you think might make you a better person if you’re doing it too. So, you force yourself to do another one. Little by little you start to enjoy it in a way. Even the parts that hurt at first now have a sort of satisfaction, especially finishing one. It gets to the point where you now need it. If you don’t have one, the day becomes hard and you’re irritable. Even on the days you don’t want to do one, you know you need it and you wont feel right until you have done it.

Long runs are just like smoking.

The irony!

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Its been raining for the past few days nonstop! I’ve been very happy about it since it’s the only possibility to clear off the huge amounts of snow and ice that have been lingering on my favorite running paths for weeks. There’s no possible way it would have melted away in any reasonable amount of time with the temperatures hovering around the low to mid 30s.

This snow has been making it nearly impossible to run with any sort of speed or comfortable stride. But, just today, as I commuted into work, I noticed a nearby path was almost completely cleared off.

Then I start hearing about more snow coming. I dismiss it in hopes that it wont stick being the ground is wet, and probably not cold enough anymore.

Now, as I listen to the weather forecast, I’m hearing the snow coming tomorrow should start sticking towards the end of the day Thursday and continue on through Friday.

I contemplated taking a personal day from work tomorrow just to do my long run.

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